Lyrics

Verse 1
There’s a life I wish I had
The one I know I can’t get back
Sometimes all I want is in the past
Walking through these empty rooms
Some still have the ghost of you
This one always stops me in my tracks

Pre-chorus
I know a new beginning’s what I need
Still it’s hard to let go of everything

Chorus
So Take it all away
The things these walls would say
I’m never really ready for goodbye
I’m giving myself one last look behind
To the life I wish I had

Verse 2
All those nights we watched TV
Back when we were a family

Pre-Chorus 2
I know that healing means things have to change
But sometimes all I want is to the stay

Chorus
So Take it all away
The things these walls would say
I’m never really ready for goodbye
Giving myself one last look behind

Bridge
Oo-oo-oo
Oo-oo-oo
Playing out a million stories 
But all of them are make believe
They’re still all I see

Chorus
So Take it all away
The things these walls would say
I’m never really ready for goodbye
Giving myself one last look behind
Next time I drive by you won’t be mine
You’re the life I wish I had

Verse 1
I could stay in the place where I’ve been
The place that I know
Where I’ve memorized every tree, every bump on the road

But those streets are feeling less and less like home
And it’s scary but I know I have to go

Chorus
There’s a monster in my closet
Whispering in the dark
Saying everything I’ve wanted
Is it really who you are

Post-Chorus
There’s a monster in my closet
I can try to hide, keep it all inside
There’s a monster in my closet
Always buried in my mind

Verse 2
I thought that I silenced the voices I guess I was wrong
‘Cause I’ve come all this way but their shadows are riding along

But those thoughts are feeling less and less like home
Made peace that they’re with me, wherever I go

Chorus
There’s a monster in my closet
Whispering in the dark
Saying everything I’ve wanted
Is it really who you are

Post-Chorus
There’s a monster in my closet
There’s a monster in my closet

Bridge
Wish i could hide when
It’s raging inside
It comes out at night
There’s no disguise
I feel it rising

Intro
I feel a little Fomo
I feel a little fomo

Verse 1
Woke up late
And I missed the gym
Got 10 missed calls
And an(a) empty fridge
See my friend’s posting all their pics
Like what…

I go to work while they’re having fun
They’re so successful I wish I was
Blowing up, but there’s so much left undone

Chorus
Looks like everyone is doing fine
Living in their picture perfect lives
I’m feeling like sometimes
I wonder if I
Missed mine
I feel a little Fomo
I feel a little fomo

Verse 2
Seems like everyone’s at the same party
That’s everyone except for me
Must have lost my invite, lol
Is it all just in my mind
Feels like they all just pass me by
They’ve got a ring, I’ve got lame pickup lines

Chorus
Looks like everyone is doing fine
Living in their picture perfect lives
I’m feeling like sometimes
I wonder if I
Missed mine

Cause I wanna say I’m doing fine
When I’m really feeling left behind
Stayin’ in home tonight
I’m wondering why…

I feel a little Fomo, hah
I feel a little fomo, hah

Chorus:
Looks like everyone is doing fine
Living in their picture perfect lives
I’m feeling like sometimes
I wonder if I
Missed mine

Verse 1
They say
That it shouldn’t be this hard
Why can’t, you just change
The way you are

Seems like, everybody else figured this one out
You’d think by now
You’d have figured out how

Pre-chorus
I know I can’t change the things that make me who I am
I know

Chorus
I’m hard to handle
Sometimes I’m a^ mess
And I’m still learning how to
Show what’s in my chest

I know I’m damaged
You can see all of my cracks
They’re painfully open
But I’m still unbroken
Bro-broken

Verse 2
One day
It’s not gonna be this hard
It’s ok
The past can only leave a mark
But it…
Can’t tell you who, you’re gonna be
Just wait and see
Yeah yeah

Chorus
Ohh- I’m hard to handle
Sometimes I’m a mess
And I’m still learning how to
Show what’s in my chest
I know I’m damaged
You can see all of my cracks
They’re painfully open
But I’m still unbroken
Bro-broken

Bridge
So when the scars are all that I see
I remind myself I don’t have to be
Broken, bra-broken

Chorus
Oh – I’m hard to handle
Sometimes I’m a mess
And I’m still learning how to
Show what’s in my chest
I know I’m damaged
You can see all of my cracks
They’re painfully open
But I’m still unbroken
Bro-broken

Spotify Apple Amazon YT Music

The Life I Wish I Had

Release Date : June 13, 2002
Artist : Madilyn Paige
Catalog ref. : 9654654
Format : Digital Download

Madilyn Paige debuts her first EP of 2022, “The Life I Wish I Had.” Paige enters into a new chapter: moving from her childhood home, navigating life single, and facing uncertainty. “2021 was about coming to terms with my parents divorce and heartache… this year, it’s about moving on,” says Paige. Compared to her 2021 album, this EP contrasts both sincere and light-hearted experiences with hopeful and forward-looking perspectives. Following the June 13 release, two more EPs will follow for 2022.